National Breastfeeding week, this week is very special to my heart this year, being that it is my first and hopefully not my last. That being said I wanted to share my journey thus far. Hopefully it will give other new mommies hope or shed some light to others who don’t know much about it. Forgive me because I am not much of a blogger and don’t usually spill this much about myself but felt it was a good time to do so.
April 18th our little man (lets call him baby W) was born, seven days late. Rough labor, 23+ hrs , and 11:43 pm this new mom and dad were tired but I was determined to breastfeed. All I heard my entire pregnancy is BREAST IS BEST, formula is terrible, etc. I mean come on, I’m a new mom and felt if I didn’t succeed at this I failed. Well, day 1 we found out baby W was slightly tongue tied, I had no clue what that meant but the nurses told me I was producing enough “food” for him and baby was latching good. Well great! Everything was going as planned or so I thought. Did I mention he was crying non stop. I could feel it in my new mom heart that something wasnt right. I hadn’t slept, my husband barely slept and our new little man was screaming constantly. Was this our new life? Is he gonna be a fussy baby? I kept trying to tell everyone around me he seems hungry still, h’es not staying on long enough. I had countless nurses telling me he was fine and some babies are just fussy. They did however try to help by teaching me ways to rub his back for gas. MAssage him to keep him from being constipated. But still didnt seem like it was enough.
Day 2- W was still crying,and now so was I, he wouldn’t sleep and finally after I called the lactation counselor in and the nurses multiple times I had enough! We needed help! And as a new mom that is a really hard pill to swallow. So we decided using an S&S method of feeding where I basically attach a tube to feed formula to him while he latches to teach him to stay on and be patient till my milk lets down. OH MY GOODNESS he was like a totally different baby. Come to find out he was barely getting anything, and was crying because he was hungry. His tongue tie wouldn’t let him latch enough to get my milk to let down before he would freak out and start crying. Poor little guy!
Well we went home and had to keep using the S&S method which was only possible with my husbands help. BUT I was able to switch off of formula because I could pump enough to feed him through the tube. That first week and a half we “slept” in our living room with all the lights on. I used the Medela breast pump and literally pumped every second I wasn’t feeding him. It was getting better W was a happy little guy now that he was fed. But he loved to eat, all day and all night, I felt he was attached to my boobs for 2 weeks straight.
This is definitely a little overwhelming and honestly one of the toughest parts of becoming a new mom. This was just a piece of my breastfeeding story with much more to write about… but thats in another post soon to come.
***All I have to add is breastfeeding is amazing but please listen to your gut, if your baby needs formula, WHO CARES! FED IS BEST! I will leave it at that.
PS I do not believe in mom shaming, I have many beautiful amazing friends who all have different stories and amazing healthy children and neither boob or bottle made that difference.
What are your breastfeeding stories? What made it easier for you? Has anyone out there done the S&S method and did it help you with your bundle of joy.